Step back

One by one, they fade away…

Satisfying needs and wants of the other,

One by one, I’m kept at bay,

‘Cause my needs and wants don’t matter.

One on the side, left to rot,

One buy one, well, I’m two,

Not the buyer or the bought,

Quickly from boo I become who.

Love lasts, that may be true,

Not shown or felt, nearly dead.

Loved last, But am the only one true,

Forever I care, even when rid.

You pair the best to get the best,

Not just chemistry, its truth unsaid.

Got them genes best, let’s face the rest,

A mystery why with me wasn’t put to bed.

Once the talk, thought, and breathe,

Now no talk, No care on how I’m doing,

Still I wait, to talk, to care, to be the need,

When love’s ready, know I’ll be waiting.

One by one these tears roll down,

Come the day, when each need an answer,

Comes the grasp, not others’ frown

But my smile, the one that did matter.

They say, if it’s meant to be, it will be,

May be you leave everything to chance,

I make my meant to bes, so it will be,

Baby, I fight to ensure my chance.

Cried a river, but I stood tall.

Walked away in defeat, but I refuse to let go,

Cry me a tear, I will outstand the fall,

Walk with feats, always outshine your beau.

I may be gone but am never over,

I last forever, even if just in mind

Once with me, am the one true lover,

Cast aside, but still the best you’d find.

A setback, I stepped back,

Gave you space, some time away,

I step back, Clawing up the stack,

Past has passed, I need you back today.

Replaced?

Betrayed once, it’s all in the game,

Second betrayal, now it’s such a shame,

Stabbed twice, don’t care for blame game,

Pay the price twice? Lost I have my face and dame.

Thought I had much love to spread,

Overwhelming heart, spread where it led,

Now it’s haunting me, that love is almost dead,

There is no next, that word has become my dread.

I’d rather the silver bullet had crept my behind,

After a flip and topple, I would’ve just stayed behind,

Lick the flames and hoping to shut out my breath and mind

That way I didn’t have to face this loss, or this act unkind.

Death is eventual, but you aren’t prepared for it,

I knew had to face this someday, but today wasn’t it,

I trusted my feelings, love, where it led and what we did,

The last strand of hope burned, you’ve gotten me rid.

Could’ve given this, all and more than was wanted,

In return all I wanted was to be the one wanted,

Not by some, all, or one, but the one that I wanted,

To earn that want, I did everything I could, undaunted.

This time, I’m not walking away,

Your choice now to turn the other way,

Choice has been made, am thrown away,

Yet I choose to fight, live and die another day.

It’s time to retire the person behind the mask,

Don’t deserve another chance, couldn’t live the ask,

The colder I’ve become, no more me I can unmask,

Me? Who’s me, it’s him that I’m dumping alive in the cask.

I may be cold, but he’s lived long enough,

Braved the storms, but he’s not just that tough.

To live through tears, blood and survive the rough,

He’s been replaced, and now I shall rule his turf.

A survivor, hope some of him survives this day,

So that he’s there when his love returns someday,

Will work on finding ways to game this play,

Ensure he never comes second, I will lead his fray.

Fight desire or Fight for desire?

Everything I seem to want I do not get,
The harder I try, the further it gets.
It started with you, a few, and everything new,
I get real close, smell the rose, now it's just No’s.
Should I stop wanting? Should I stop trying?
Some blame the desire, some the fighting.
Look, this is how worse it can get,
Looks like I'm the bad example set,
Compared to present, the bad seems better,
All of a sudden it doesn't pay being the go getter.
Ramblings of the defeated, you may think,
Lost have I ones dear, dear dreams,
Dreams’ wants, wants extremes.
But should I stop wanting, should I stop trying,
That's when I'm done. Done with fighting,
Done with living, done with what I meant…
That ain't happening. I'm out to prove that I'm godsend.