Stormy tides

I knew I was special, Thought I was god’s angel,

Put to test now and then, He knew I’d always fare well

Oh well, I was wrong, Realized I’m his stress ball,

My balls he’d squeeze when things don’t go well.

Oh hell, Dunno how long I can take this, I’ll repel

Fight, Swell, Explode, before I bid farewell

Forever, Hate being boxed up in this shell

I wanted to be special but not a spayed skull.

None of you know what I’ve been through,

That hug and kiss meant for me, I never knew.

Been the ugly duckling all my life, I grew

With no one beside me and no one to guide through.

Never once feeling special or loved, I withdrew

From life, Went to dark corners you never knew

Even existed and I fought through

Every pain, trauma, and came out bullet-proof.
 

Never understood why I cannot be loved back

The way I love someone, Seem to have a knack

For finding the wrong end, All odds are stacked

Against me, No love, I lie on a bed of tacks,

Bruised back, I wonder what it is that I lack,

Is my passion beyond what anyone can give back?

Oh fack, Got nothing to lose, its time for payback,

I’ma attack, Take back what I deserve from your love sac.

What I think of society? I think its bull crap,

Social animal, yeah, but still a man-made trap,

To bind the free, In others view you’re wrapped

Every step, every action, followed closely, Oh snap.

Dont care what you say or think, I’ma flap,

My wings and fly out, Stop me? good luck with that.

No one can judge me, pop you out like bubble wrap,

Suck in, and ingest you, I’m Venus fly trap?
 

All my life I felt very deprived, In cold zones,

I thrived, Turning every blizzard into a stepping stone,

Many a times, I felt I couldn’t hold my own,

I collapsed, Under the weight of the world,

Tears froze, I cried a river, Emotions overblown.

When many are around, I still feel alone,

For my true love’s first kiss, I still yearn,

Hopes alive I’d pull off a fairy tale on my own,

I survive today on thin ice as a sole clone,

For the day I’d unite with my soul clone,

I will fight for it, cuz that’s my right, I will burn

Bright when all of earth’s glory is dethroned.

From a recent composition titled 'Stormy Tides'. Guess I'm back huh?